Blogger burnout wasn’t a term I had heard of before I attended an event a couple of months ago, and since then, it has stuck with me as something that I definitely experience from time to time.
Burnout, in general, is a big thing in my life. When I was younger, I never wanted to be at home and spread myself across a few different social groups so I would have plans almost every night. I would spend all of the money I earnt from my part-time job on going for dinner, going to the pub, nights out, shopping trips and anything else that people wanted to do, and it floored me.
Looking back, I definitely think this was a reaction to my anxiety (as it hadn’t been diagnosed at the time) and the wanting to be out every second of the day was a coping mechanism for dealing with what was going on in my head.
I used to only have about 5-6 hours sleep a night and would rely on coffee and red bull (my two worst nightmares now) to keep me awake for work and university – but to me, that lifestyle was what I wanted and what I craved.
Now I could think of nothing worse.
I need time spent at home. I need nights in. I need time to rest and recuperate. I need to act my age all in all.
To me, staying in for an evening is a chance to regroup, spend time with loved ones, write blogs, scroll through social media and generally relax, which is something I never used to do properly. Now if I make plans for more than a few evenings in the week, I feel incredibly overwhelmed.
We spend the majority of our week at work, in meetings, on the road, and the last thing I personally want to do when I get in every night is head back out again. How the times have changed hey?
And then there comes blogger burnout.
Writing a blog is something I have done on and off for the past 6 years, but only recently have I decided to stick to a rough schedule and publish relatively the same number of posts a week. But with having such an intense hobby that can easily take up most of your time outside of the workplace, burnout can be even more prevalent in the blogging world.
When I spend time at home, sometimes I feel as though I should be writing content, planning, taking pictures, scheduling social media and learning new things to help me with my blogging in general in any spare moment that I have. And although I absolutely love writing, sometimes there is nothing more that I want to do than to put my laptop away and just be me for an evening.
Until your full-time job is being a blogger, you will always have to find the time to fit in writing posts around all of the other areas in your life, and it’s easy to not give yourself any ‘me’ time because you are so preoccupied with everything else.
I started to feel as though I was burning the candle at both ends back in December, as there were so many social gatherings, blogger dinners and visits to other cities that I felt as though I didn’t have any downtime – I barely even got chance to buy and wrap my present which is always something I look forward to around Christmas – and after all of that, it left me feeling as though I was at a loose end, trying to please everyone.
And what did I gain from that?
Well, although I spent time with some of my favourite people, I also felt like a shell of myself because I was so tired and out of it from constantly being in and out of the city after doing full days of work, so the person that was attending the events and trying to keep up with everyone’s conversation was just a worn-out version of me.
I’ve learnt that there are more important things in my life at the moment than trying to please everyone, and although my blog is up there at the top of the list of what I’m passionate about, I also don’t want any of my relationships to fall by the wayside because of it.
I now know my boundaries and when I need to take some time away from the online world, and that realisation is one of the most important lessons that 2018 has given me so far. Pinpointing when to switch off and when your mind needs a break is something I am going to take forward into the rest of the year and hopefully, all the areas of my life will work soundly together.
So yes, if you were to ask me, I would 100% say that blogger burnout is a real thing, and maybe not one that a lot of people realise they are experiencing.
If you take anything away from this, it’s to listen to yourself, your body, your mind, your loved ones. Even if you feel guilty for not ticking things off your to-do list, you are only human and taking time for yourself is incredibly important.
And on that note – I’m off for a day away from the internet!